In memory of my cousin Janat :)

Me, my Aunty Berta and her son JR.

"THE SISTERS" The second oldest generation on my moms side of the family. The only living family member past them is their Aunt Betty who is now almost 90!

My BEAUTIFUL cousin Makenzie, (yeah shes only 14 years old and shes prettier than i could ever be in my whole life!) and her mom Cheryl Ann, who is among the sweetest of my cousins.

Me and my my favorite cousin Casey cheezin it up :)

My cousin Janats favorite color was yellow, so we released two big batches of big yellow balloons after the funeral.

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I dont know what was going on in my cousin Janats last few months of her life, but Satan was wearing her thin. She, PRAISE THE LORD was a believer and saved in Christ Jesus our Lord! Whatever Satan did to her to make her feel defeated and lead her to take her own life, she really is only living in Gods beautiful glory now! I know that no matter how much we miss her here on earth she wouldn't even think twice about coming back even if she could. WHO would wanna come back after just seeing God's beauty for one IOTA of a second!? I know acceptance of her death is easier for me to grasp because i have NO FEAR of where she is. My family is a LARGE family of non-believers. She and I are the only ones that i know of that are Born-Again-Christians, so death for non-believers can be such a hard and confusing time. The funeral service was WONDERFUL! It was done by her pastor from her church Calvary Chapel Worship Church in Hillsboro, OR. He did AN AMAZING JOB of explaining the gift of salvation and how it is a gift to anyone who accepts it. I was in tears by the end just because i knew i was one of the few people in the room who REALLY appreciated the gift and what it meant and saved you from. I afterwards went and thanked him for doing such a beautiful job explaining the gospel to a family of non-believers, and how refreshing it was to hear Gods word preached about, since i had been with my family the last week in a half, it really was like fresh air and then shared a little bit of my testimony with him and his wife! He then thanked me for my service and love for the Lord. I was so blessed to see that her service was filled with godly people and that it went so wonderful! Her children as you can imagine are having the hardest of times with what is happening. Please pray that through all of this there would be new hearts lead to the Lord!